Wow! I totally forgot about this blog. I still love it. Everything has completely changed in my life, some positive and some negative. I'll start with the fact that I moved to a different province, about 3000 miles away from my home town. Its completely different. Definitely more thinspo here. There are beaches, huge huge malls, and sooo many gorgeous people. So much inspiration. So much more fashion opportunities. Everything. Lovelovelove it. Its like a mini new york here! I met a guy.. he is so hot. Blond and blue eyes! I am definitely falling for him. He makes me happy in every single way. He doesn't even have to do anything, just a simple hi.... not a lot of people like him though.. they say he is an asshole and I can do much better. He can be a jerk though, hes one of those guys who believes his woman should do everything for him. I don't mind it. Ah I'm completely head over heels for this guy. I just hope it doesn't turn out bad because good things do come to an end and if it sounds to good to be true, then it probably is. Besides changing the scenery, I am also changing myself.. growing into a person who I can actually be content with. Obviously I have my days where I just want to die but I haven't had one in forever. Food is still food. Its scary, of course. The only time I eat is when I'm with my guy. He makes me. This could be taken as a negative/positive thing.. I guess it depends on the person but I might be pregnant. I find out in a week. I'm extremely scared, and super nervous. I don't know if I want a baby, but if I am then I guess it'll be okay. However, we discussed this.. and.. his stupid friend is trying to get him to convince me to get an abortion if I am. I am totally against that crap. Speaking of his stupid friend... he has an ex who is constantly trying to fuck us over. She hits on him and everything. I don't know what to do with that. Not to sound cocky, but I am more prettier than her, I am better than her in every single way. I don't know what he saw in her. Blah, besides that.. the worst thing that happened to me was the fact that my landlord sexually assaulted me. I am scared to even see the fucker. Hes so creepy, like he knows where I hang out and he drives by. Ahhh. I gotta go though, will update this tomorrow when I have more time :D

K first of all, as I was doing ooodles of homework ( not, I was actually on the treadmill while listening to some cool music ), I was distracted by the thought of this blog. I should update more frequent. Pathetic? Definitely not. Second of all, Aquafina vitamin water can never amount to vitaminwater, it's not even possible. I lurve the lemonade flavour. omggg. I drank one this morning, left for a walk and came back. Just when I thought life didn't make sense, I come back and there is a 6 pack of lemonade vitamin water on the table. Needless to say, there was a note on it and it said my name ( LIFFE IS COMPLETE! ) omggg. I want more. Seriously, if you never had this kind of vitimin water, you haven't lived life! I also decided that if I am being an emotion little bitch in one of my blog posts, I will delete it afterwards. I am quite embarrassed of them. But my complaining will never ever stop. Thats what I do. Idk or Idc. Lawls I just read a blog from this one girl that goes to the university that I go too, quoteee 'this place is full of gays, fakes and idiots'.. being me, I want to reply with something really bitchy but I don't need extra drama. I realized I only update my blog around 11pm, orr way past that time. Only when I am reallyreallyreally deprived of sleep. So I apologize for this unorganized blog post, and the others that will follow. I am far tooooo lazy to organize it, and I don't care enough to do it right nao. P.s, forget about my spelling skillz, I suck at spelling when I am tired! Ewww I hate the smell of burning food/way too make me puke! My sis is baking a lot and upstairs it smells like it is burning. Unpleasant but its making my hungerness go away. I'm just reallyreally thirsty. I don't want to go downstairs cause everyone is there. I hate being around lots of people I dislike. My jealous sister asked why I am so skinny. AHAHAHAHahahaha I love it. Oh did I mention I have a job interview? Yurrrrpp! At my old job :P At aldo. I miss it. I miss the skinny thinspo girls. I missed the pretty everything there. Idk Why I need another interview, they know me. pLUS I didn't apply there again they just randomly called :S My hair is static-y but I don't care enough to un-static it. With that, I'm off. Lemonade ruled my morning.

I have decided to get a life. I hate most people though. I felt the need to call some of my 'buds' and go out for some coffee. I was planning to bail but since I made the initiation to actually pick up a phone and call them, talk to them, I like literally, MADE myself go. I had lemon water with extra lemons of course. They both had fattening, disgusting, sugar filled drinks. We ended up walking a few blocks down to the arcade. Boy, was that 'fun'. I played ddr, some other game where I had to wear a thingy over my head to play it. That was cool. I did somewhat enjoy the company of them, but I enjoyed the weather even more. It was sunny, +20. Amazing. Sorry, but I am going to swear. I'm so fucking tired. Yeahh, I swore. I swear a lot. So classy, I know. I recently went to the doctors office with my brother because he is awfully ill. I stubbed my toe on a chair leg and near went flying into an old lady. I said 'fuckFUCKfuck', because of my limited vocabulary when I am hurt. She pretty much gave me dirty looks, came up to me and said that is not what young ladies do. Hhahaha. I'm not rude to the old people, but still, they should be nice to youngsters. Luckily my ipod was with me. My bestfrand. I was tempted to make myself an appointment with the doc but nahhh. I'm embarrassed, well not really embarrassed, I guess just, I donnno. I didn't want the whole speech about me not eating and being toooo skinny (really?????). But my hip has been hurting A LOT. Whenever I'm sitting for more than 5 mins, I get up and I can hardly walk. Ugh unnecessary pain! I had an amazing dream this morning. I have a lot of them but I usually wake up at 9, check to see if the kids are okay, then sleep again til like 11. I like my dreams in the mornings, they are usually positive and are about the people I lurve. It was about my old best friend. I miss him a lot. He gave me a hug in the dream and said I missed you too. Omg this dream came out of no where! I hardly think of him anymore. Awwwe. I bought this new bag, its all fur. Its totes cute. Obviously not real fur, but it looks like it. I got it to give myself a reward for not eatingn real junk in forever. No binges either. I've been positive for the past 2 weeks. Yayy mee. ( minus the calling myself fat every morning while getting dressed ). Shh, that does not matter! Also, yay for Easter. Nawwwt. I hate Easter, well just the chocolate part. Omg. Lindor chocolates.. whyyyyyyy temptt me? I got a million of them in my basket- YES I got a basket, lol my sis is so caring.. I also got 2 big bunnies, ones white chocolate :(, a big bag of mini eggs, jelly beans, new ipod headphones and a 13 pack of gum. Welll well, I traded my nieces and nephews for their gum, for all of my chocolate. I have like a million packs of gum now. Sawweeet. No Easter dinner either! Everyone left moi. I pretended I was ill. Lol there is this guy who won't stop bugging me over facebook. He goes to my school and he wants a 'buddie' but I keep explaining to him that I only do that stuff when I'm in a relationship, or drunk lol. He asks at least once a day. I don't know what else to say. Its easter holiday til the 16th so It'll be awkward seeing him at uni. I'd love to tell you all that i'm doing a lot of productive things with my life on this easter holiday besides sleeping til 11am, crying over guys, and exercising everyday but that would be a straight lie. I can't wait til I get on my schedule again. Sorrry for my babbling, I am tired. I just felt the need to update. I'm getting obsessed with being by the river in the city I am in. I never realized how beautiful it really is and how relaxing its been just being there. Lately I have been just sitting on the big rocks, just watching the water. Next time I go, I'll bring a camera and take a picture of the scenery. Food still sucks. Its very tempting. I hate grocery stores and my sister for going food shopping every week ( I don't really hate her ya know ). Well since this blog is all ova the place~ I am gonna go watch the big bang theory, and lay in my comfy bed. Choww!